"Nearly three months," Will replied, tugging her gently toward him so the were walking a little nearer to each other. "I arrived on September 15. But I ended up in the hospital pretty much immediately," he told her. "I had encephalitis when I got here, and it had been undiagnosed for several months. I was in pretty bad shape for a while."
He paused, thinking about how long ago that felt now, even though it was only a couple of months ago. All the hallucinations and nightmares and lost time felt like a distorted memory.
"After that I..." Will shook his head. "I ended up in some nightmare version of this city. For three weeks." He stopped, swallowing back the impending panic that rose in him when he thought about his time there, what he'd done. "It was unpleasant," he said, the tone of his voice matching the way it made him feel. "And that's putting it mildly. I had to do things there, horrible things, to survive. I don't know how real any of it was, but everything I did felt that way."
He squeezed Molly's hand again, needing her as a touchstone now, keeping him grounded so he wouldn't lose himself to terrible memories. "I haven't been much of anywhere here, because of all of that. And my tendency to avoid crowds. The fact that I went to Kagura, I really feel like something made me go there." He turned to her, giving her as bright as smile as he could with the unease that had risen inside him. "I don't know what it was, but I'm so glad I went."
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Date: 2015-12-17 10:46 pm (UTC)He paused, thinking about how long ago that felt now, even though it was only a couple of months ago. All the hallucinations and nightmares and lost time felt like a distorted memory.
"After that I..." Will shook his head. "I ended up in some nightmare version of this city. For three weeks." He stopped, swallowing back the impending panic that rose in him when he thought about his time there, what he'd done. "It was unpleasant," he said, the tone of his voice matching the way it made him feel. "And that's putting it mildly. I had to do things there, horrible things, to survive. I don't know how real any of it was, but everything I did felt that way."
He squeezed Molly's hand again, needing her as a touchstone now, keeping him grounded so he wouldn't lose himself to terrible memories. "I haven't been much of anywhere here, because of all of that. And my tendency to avoid crowds. The fact that I went to Kagura, I really feel like something made me go there." He turned to her, giving her as bright as smile as he could with the unease that had risen inside him. "I don't know what it was, but I'm so glad I went."